Just another random post

So much has been going on in my life. I would have to say that I have finally searched for what life really meant to me, and it is far beyond perfect. I guess it is all part of growing up. Growing up, you experience new things. Some may learn from it, and some may just say screw it and end up making the same mistakes twice or even more. Although I have an idea of what life really means to me, it's just the applying that knowledge to my life that is difficult. I must admit, though, that I have been independent for a long time, but I suppose it just hasn't fully hit me until now. I know that in order to be motivated and be true, I must do it on my own and not focus on what others think of me or say of me. I have been more open and I could say that I am a bit more happy being able to express how I feel. I have always had an open mind about certain things, but I haven't fully expressed it to the world. Now that I have been able to, this amount of stress has lifted from my shoulders and I feel amazing. There are certain days where I do feel lonely or sad when I think about my lack of friends I have and who I would turn to when it came to when I needed them, but in the end it is just a phase. I guess it is hard to fully grasp the amount of love and care I have around me when it came to friends and family, but I know they truly do. I appreciate it very much with all of my heart and I thank them for it.